days that seem to last forever and goodbyes that are over in the blink of an eye...

i don't have much time or energy to write... it's late and i need to get sleep before i start the journey - in just 8 hours...

the days have been lasting forever... i feel like the last few days have lasted a month... and yet, as i say goodbye to each person that i won't see for many months, if ever, the moment is gone before i have a chance to realize it...

i've cried many tears... saying goodbye is hard... there are many emotions that i'm feeling right now... this is the hardest move i've ever had... no exceptions...

christmas was great... the christmas part, anyway... i was back and forth to my apartment a few times today... and i turned in the keys this evening and drove away... erin, who has been my lifesaver this week (and next week), asked me if i needed a moment as i was leaving #33 for the last time... she was getting a little emotional/sad... and i told her...

when you've moved as many times as me, it's not about the buildings but the people and relationships... i won't miss the apartment, i'll miss my friends and northwest family...

my heart is sad tonight... there's excitement about the journey ahead, but mostly i feel anxiety and sadness... and that's something most of the people waiting for me at the other end won't really "get" - i don't know if anyone really does... and i feel like a jerk when i am not excited... it's going to be a rough few weeks...

but for now, i need sleep or else tomorrow will be horrible!!!